Princess n Prince Koh

Do send me your RSVP for priority admission
due to crowd control.

ALSO
this is NOT a 2nd hand Flea market sales.
All toys are from USA/ UK/ Germany.
All toys are brand new.

Accessories like breast pads, pacifier clips etc. are also on sale.

*Fabrics sales are also available at the Bazaar (by appointment ONLY)

So wat are u waiting for?
Come and Join us on Saturday!!

Kite for sales!!

Come to
http://layangmadness.weebly.com .

Place your order with
layangmadness@gmail.com

I'm soo excited that i have to post this out loud!!!

Vote for Maphius and Letitia!!
Maphius @ http://www.embassyofbabies.com/contest_v oting.php?cat=A#14
Letitia @
http://www.embassyofbabies.com/contest_voting.php?cat=C#21
juz register and vote!! it's free!!

THANKS and LOVE,

JOSS~~xoxoxox

*hugs and kisses of thanks from LM~~*

Tiger,
you walk out on us.
You are the one running away from all the problems
from all the situation.
You cause them to come,
but u expect others to clear it up for u??
U juz reached home,
at 10am.
den you realise we are not around..
Where are you when u are needed here the most,
wat happen to that guy that was in the delivery suite with me..
where is that guy that exchanged the vows with me?
I have no idea.
Maybe I haven't seen the real you..
Maybe you are just slowly revealing yourself..
But it's not too late..
you still can be the one that we can rely on..
you still have me..
only if you are willing to be the man..
the one who care to clear up the shit he have caused..
the one who knows that his wife will stand by him
no matter how deep the shit is..

but that is not wat u r doing,
u left me to see the MP myself,
which i didn't,
cuz the MP wouldn't even want to see me..
u left me to wait for u
for dinner,
but you never came back for it.
u left without telling me where you will be,
even though i asked and asked..
u left and went overseas with your friends,
when you are suppose to be clearing your shit.

Since you do things as you please,
you dun care what happen,
you dun wanna think about anything else.
Well~~
That's fine with me..
u wanna live a shitty life,
leave us out of it.
the kids deserve better..

Tiger and I went out last night with Bee and Vernon.
We picked up Bee, went Vernon place for supper,
den go Sentosa..
To be exact, we went to Siloso Beach.

Took this with my hp..
damn nice lohz!!
LOL!!

Today he made me angry again..
I've been trying soo hard..
SOOO HARD!!!
I tried to pacify everyone,
to make our life better..
But he dun even wanna help himself..
Is it very difficult to clear up all the shit slowly,
using the right means??
I dun have to go to the toen council,
I dun need to go to the MP with you!!
I AM NOT LIABLE TO DO ANYTHING AT ALL!!
WHY SHOULD I?!?!?!
i'm only going through this because I wanna a better life with you..
I hope we can clear all the debt etc and bills,
so that we can move out..
have a place of our own to call home..
of cuz it'll be a better place/ environment for the kids to learn and play!!
Is that too much to ask??
shouldn't that be wat a proper independant family be doing??
AND WAT THE HELL DID HE DO??
he say he needs to go out and "earn" money..
so ask me to go to the MP myself!!
FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!
the MP wun even look at me if the person involved is not there!!!
I tot u seriously wanna clear the shit!!
I tot u decided to grow up!!
but u still dun c where your priority lies..

Is there a point for me to move back to my parents place??
The problem will still persist..
I will feel happier over there,
DEFINITELY..
but that will only make u angry and
worsen our relationship..
But muz I swallow all these nonsense??
Muz I kick all this trouble away??
and pretend they never exist??

I remember my dad telling me this all the time,
Never Compare Yourself To People Who Are Worst Than You Are,
Compare With The Ones Who Are Better.
Y cant tiger understand that?
f-ing hell lah!!
cant he see that I'm trying to make our life better??
so none of our relative would look down on us??
even though u say u dun care!!
but hell lahz!!
I care can???
I'm someone hu want to be at the top!!
not the neutral/ average!!
maybe because I'm brought up in a family that strives..
Not one that try to do things that they don't have the ability to!!
I use to go overseas, fly for holiday every year!!
And i haven been able to do that ever since I'm married into this F-ing family!!
i had enough!!
I dun wanna to do anything anymore!!
I wanna give up!!

Mummy, Daddy:
Is there anything else I can do for LM??
Wat can I do for this family??
I am caught in the middle,
I dun wanna disappoint you both and make myself angry,
Neither do i worsen the relationship with Tiger..
I feel so lose,
I dunno wat to do!!

Lots have been going on.
Life hasn't been perfect.
But I can see that he's trying..
He just needs the support..
Sometimes I feel that I should juz leave him to the shit that he created.
Like what everyone have been telling me..
No point helping him,
he'll never learn..
Maybe I see the part of him that everyone else didn't see..
Maybe I juz plainly love him.
Maybe he's juz the one that I get stuck with, Helping.
Whatever the reason,
I'm still here. With him. And the kids.
STRUGGLING.

I cant help feeling down at every single time when things dun go my way.
I strongly believe I can live thru all the shit that's coming towards us.
But who knows what we are going thru?
Sometimes, others just cant understand and feel how we feel.
Tiger is working hard.
I can see that,
STOP STRESSING HIM!!
I noe there are bills to be paid,
salary and levy to be given,
things to fix,
mouth to feed.
AND
I'm trying my best to do my job,
and get my salary.
everyone is trying to contribute!!
I noe you guys hope that I'll help with the family expenses with the Baby Bonus,
but NO!!
I'm not gonna waste it on u!!
I rather treat Tiger a good meal!!
How much have I paid since L's 1st $1000?
Next month L would receive her last $1000,,
and I cant even send her to school when I wanna to.
I feel that I'm so useless.

So much for working at home,
sometimes when I wanna look after LM myself,
aka bath them, feed them, sleep with them,
i cant, cuz work piles up like mad
and "work is a bitch"
~as usual~
LOL!!

enough of the EMO-ism..
shall do some photo sharing and status update on LM.

Maphius~~

• he can sit by himself
• trying to crawl
• still on full bf, with additional meal of fm in the morning and cereal in the evening
• getting cheekier each day
• learning all kinds of funning stunts from L

Letitia~~

• She's running about like nobody's business
• Love to carry Cookie all over the place
• Loves Elmo
• Learning all kinds of words and things (e.g. pear, apple, elmo etc.)
• Molars coming out
• Loves shopping and modeling around
• Dance to all sorts of music
• Might start bringing her to playgroup
• Just loves to k-po and help around the house (e.g. sweep the floor with the magic clean sweeper)
• Loves her bro

Just made LM's passport. And they will be going for their first trip with Ah Ma and Gong gong (of cuz with me oso).. We're going Genting!! Can't wait.. Too bad and so sad that Tiger cannot go with us.

*peek at everyone*
I noe i haven been blogging
and very busy~~
so here i am..
dun complain liaoz hor..

My lil monkey chipmunk: Maphius
he's gonna be 5months in 2days time!!
time really flies..

• he noes how to raise his hand when he wants to be carried.
• he started to try spoon-feeding
• 1st solid: Potato
• hugs his giraffe and monkey still
• can self entertain
• pull other ppl's hair
• can sit on highchair by himself

My lil cheeky princess: Letitia

L is 16mths le..

• she can handsign twinkle twinkle little star
• tried to feed herself with spoon.
• give flying kisses
• nod her head when she want something.
• obsess with elmo song recently
• manage to unlock my iphone

K n J
kenneth kena accident the other day..
need 8stitches..
but alr remove stitches liaoz..
now he's trying his best to work n pay up all the outstanding bills etc.
xin ku ni le lao gong.

as for me,
work have been a bitch..
life have been dramas..
but all's well~~

PS!!
new brand of hairclips etc.
coming soon!! Stay tune!!

This Bloody Asshole try to dope me with Spanish Fly!!
Moron!!
He claims that he alr put 2 drops in the green tea..
which i took a few sips..
(Though I'm not affected)
I alr close 1 eye on him coming back late..
+ i'm breastfeeding!!
Dun even noe whether there'll be side-effect
if i feed M anot!!
furthermore i got 2 more concern!!
1. I ate panadol cuz of toothache..
2. I got thyroid,
causing my heart to beat faster than average people..
(sometimes,
doing sports will cause me to feel breathless
and chest pain..)

I'M FUCKING PISSED OFF AND ANGRY WITH THIS
BLOODY STUPID ASSHOLE TIGER!!

if anything happen to M
or me because of this spanish fly incident..
u guys noe hu to look for!!

yes darlings,
i'm back @ my folks once more..
mayb i seem childish by moving here and there..
mayb some will even tell me to try work it out..
but i'm tired,
drained,
and not into the fighting spirit anymore..
i'm gonna just take a break..
rest myself from life..

Life is full of ups and downs,
it's a long and low down-time for me..
someone sae that i'm growing up..
others say that the environment force me to it..
i've learn to close 1 (sometimes both) eye on
alot of things liaoz..
i take in all your suggestion/ opinion
with a pinch of salt and
made my own decision..
i choose to marry him,
and we took our vows..
i choose to keep LM,
and i got the responsibility
to take care of them..

Let's juz take this as a chance
to see who ourselves/ each other really are
i was told by my psychiatrist/ counsellor
that I'm strong emotionally..
esp being thru all this..
they kept encouraging me..
and tell me that I've done enough
for the children..
but as a mum,
there's nothing call enough..
i'm sure i can do more..

someone ask if i've regretted taking this path
my answer is no..
it not regret,
it's more of "mayb i should have done this/ that"
but definitely not regret.
i choose this path
and i was the final decision maker,
i'm not regreting my choice
as it brought me LM..

Babies~~
Mummy Loves YOU both~~

A lil emo post here.

I'm sure all have heard about the Haiti quake.
Was watching the news ytd,
there was a 2month old baby who was suffering from lung infection,
another 4month old was highly dehydrated..
It is all this natural disaster that make us
realise how lucky we are to be born in Singapore,
where natural disaster do not hit us directly..

being a mum of 2..
it breaks my heart to c that 2 lil ones suffering lyk tat..
it brings me back to the time when LM was a newborn,
they were all young, helpless and innocent..
at least LM and all the lil ones have us with them..
alot of the kids there lose both their parents
and some were even badly hurt.
god knows how many were kidnapped and sold..

please help by goin to this link below and click..
click = sponsers will donate!!
it's free..
a click will not kill you!!

http://www.care2.com/click-to-donate/haiti/

THANK YOU!!